Happy Easter

FISH FRY!!!

My sister held a fish fry for us yesterday and it was wonderful, we thoroughly enjoyed the entire day. Ali planned the whole thing, all we did was show up and hang out. My family has always been very supportive of me and my crazy ideas but they have all outdone themselves with this adoption. Sometimes this task God has placed before us seems impossible and in reality it is, to change the lives of orphans is impossible. I do not have the capabilities necessary to minister to orphans, it is impossible to make this all work. We already have 4 children (people like to remind me of this, as if I could ever forget about the 4 little bodies already living in my home), Will is in the Navy and deploys, I home school, our girls are special needs and the list goes on and on. None if it makes sense from my stand point, none of it. But, then He reminds me, "all things are possible with God" (Matt. 19:26); "all things are possible to him who believes," (Mark 9:23). But, in all honesty sometimes I wonder what does that really look like? All things are possible with God but I am the one here who lives in this house who has to care for these children, I am the one who has to teach a deaf child to read, I am the one who writes the checks, I am the one with all these things pressing in around me. Am I alone in this? Has anyone else ever asked these questions? What does it look like, this "anything is possible" thing? Well, this fish fry is what it looks like; when God lays it upon someone's heart to give of themselves to the benefit of another. When someone takes your hand and says I will walk this road with you because I love you and because God loves you. When you reach out to someone that God has laid on your heart, you are touching them with the love of God and you are confirming in their heart, their soul, their spirit that they are in fact loved by the creator of the universe and He has not forgotten about them. No, God will not come down and prepare the spaghetti for dinner tonight, or teach our math lesson today or many of the other things on my ever growing to do list. Chances are that He is not going to be checking off things on your to do list either, but He will send others (like my wonderful sister) who will stand with you and as they stand with you, know that He stands with you also. Sometimes I look back over a day, a year, my life and I can feel and see that He has carried me, always. Sometimes, it is in a very tangible way (such as yesterday) but many times it is just a gentle strength that lifts me up on high and I realize I am soaring on wings like eagles. Not to say that there is not pain, frustration, exhaustion, confusion or fear because we are in fact human and we do feel the pain of fallen mankind but if we lift up our eyes and allow Him, He will carry us through this life. In actuality that is what He longs to do more then anything; to carry us, to tuck us safely under His arms and keep us in His embrace, His love surpasses anything that we could ever fathom. He keeps no record of wrongs, He sees us for everything He created us to be not for all the things we have done, we are His children and He wants to treat us as such. The only thing we have to do is surrender, to let go of all the things of this world that we hang onto and fall back into the arms of our Abba Father. Just let go, let it all go; the things of this world have nothing of eternal value and the view is so much better from up on high. May we all learn how to surrender completely and to soar high on wings like eagles.

Thank you Ali for reminding me that He is always watching, always caring and providing, He stands guard to my front and to my back and to either side and that all things are possible to him who believe. And I believe, I believe God will do all that He has promised and that He is faithful and able to complete that which He has begun.